Response for the 1st topic

The blog which caught my attention , my full attention , was the one fron Vincent . Not because his bog is one which i can relate to but because his entry for the 1st topic is like woah , inspiring . And i am NOT being sarcastic here . And okay , fine , his blog is the one which i can relate to the most as well . Duh .

Anyway , i don't know how this "response to other people's entry" is supposed to be dealt with , but i'll give it my best random hit anyway .

Vincent's process of "inauguration" carries much significance to me . For one , mine was merely NINE YEARS OF CATECHISM and then being swept into CYF and yada yada yada . If i was put into Vincent's shoe , i can't even forsee myself doing a little research on the internet and getting my lazy bum off the chair to search for a Catholic society to squeeze myself in . I mean , if there was no youth group CRAZILY PROMOTING themselves like how they do it in wet-market (opps ! ) , there's no way i'll ever be a non-Sunday-Catholic . No way . I'll just be like how my other friends are now , skipping Sunday services , skipping Days of obligation and whatever-not .


Okay , this cartoon caused me to roll on the floor for like 30 sec . For the dim-witted , the guy is God and the woman is us . LOL . Love it .




The second thing which struck me the MOST was this :

" In the past, I always thought that I was the smartest and the most efficient and effective legionary in my praesidium and often looked down on other members who couldn't do better than me. I didn't realise that I was blinded by pride. One day, I read a quotation by Blessed Teresa of Calcutta

...when we die and it comes time for God to judge us, He will not ask, "How many good things have you done in your life?," rather He will ask, "How much love did you put into what you did?""

When i read this , i just screamed . I mean literally ! Here's a person whom i totally DON'T KNOW , having the same experience as me ! ( I thought i was pretty unique ! )

The same could be said for me in CYF . After i read what Mother Teresa ( MT for short , and for those who don't know , she's my idol ) said , my screwed way of looking at things in CYF kinda became a totally new dimension . It's like what she said , LITERALLY , " how much love did you put into what you did " ?

I realised nowadays , the things i do in CYF as a leader were all very plastic . I can't show how exactly i am feeling in CYF . I can't show that i am sad because people will think that i'm being "emo" or attracting attention . Okay , at this point of time , i really wanna vent my saturated-displeasure at such insensitivities and supposed-restriction bu i kow vulgarities are not allowed , so i just got to use Lester's way which is , *roll eyes , WHATEVER .

I am not doing stuff out of love anymore , more like , i'm doing it because i have a duty to fulfill . Even in my own conscience , i know that i don't feel the joy in doing such stuff anymore . I'm doing them because the younger leaders expects me to do it . I'm doing them because i've got to set an example for them to do the same ( which i don't know whether they are learning or just watching ) . I'm doing them because i'm a leader who is supposed to be loving and caring FOREVER AND EVER NON-STOP LIKE A ROBOT .

But i think yes , my dear MT , i think you're right . Thanks for showing me the way though Vincent's blog and thank you Vincent . This is indeed a new path to tread for me . A new thinking of obscured thinking . A new pattern to adopt . And i hope i can do it . To put in saturated-love when i do things . Woah , thats indeed quite a tall order .

Bless me with strength , God .